My Story

One July 1, 2009 I entered the Medical Center of Arlington to deliver my beautiful baby boy, of which I knew had passed away two days before. His heart had stopped beating. It was a sureal experience walking into that hospital knowing what needed to be done. With my husband and mother by my side, I had to do the unthinkable.

My tiny baby of 1 lb. was delivered shortly after. We named him Greyson. And he was perfect. I remember his tiny little hands and feet. His small little face. He looked so little wrapped up in the nursery blanket. It was all so overwhelming, and peaceful at the same time. I loved holding his tiny little body in my arms. This was the last time I would see his tiny little face here on earth. Such a tiny baby in a big blanket it seemed. We said our goodbyes, and the nurse took him away.

After this experience, I have thought alot about that day. I think about others who have gone through this. Friends, family, and other loved ones. And those who I have not had the privledge to meet. Was their situation the same as mine? Did they hold their tiny baby in layers of blankets? Did it overwhelm them as it did me?

On that day, in the midst of all the sadness, and mourning, I received a gift. A gift from my tiny baby boy. He gave me an idea, of which, I promised to carry out. For all those mothers who enter the hospital wanting so badly to hold their baby in their arms and come home empty handed. This would be for them.

A gift by Greyson,
from me,
from you,
to them.

Mommy feels you, Greyson. And this is how I honor your memory.

I love you.

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I am looking for your help. Hospitals all across the country are in need of small, very small, baby blankets. In cases of fetal demise, babies are so tiny, even the smallest nursery blanket is much too big to wrap around their tiny bodies.

I know how parents feel when they are presented with their tiny baby, for the first and last time. Having to deal with a large blanket that doesn't fit, is a distraction. And, unnecessary.

If you can sew or crotchet/knit, would you please help me to supply blankets for these mothers?

My doctor informed me that 30% of all pregnancies end in fetal demise!

I know we can make a small yet, dramatic difference in the experience these mothers and fathers have in the hospital. It is heartbreaking for the nurses to try and present these tiny babies in the best way possible to grieving parents. They are extremely appreciative of any donations we can give.

If you would like to help in this cause, please start reading at the very beginning and learn about Greyson's Gift.
Be sure to scroll all the way down to the bottom for new information and updates

12/14/09

Its Harder Than it Should Be

I finally did it.

I have been apprehensive about delivering blankets to the hospital where we lost Greyson. I have had the blankets neatly stashed away for a couple of months now. (YES, that long!) I made all the arrangements, talked to the director many times, and even made an appt. to deliver them in October. Which I then cancelled the day before. I blamed it on sick children, but I could have made it if I had wanted to. It was just an easy excuse.

Why did I not want to go? Wasn't this the whole point? Many ladies out there were counting on me to do as I promised! So many of you have touched me with your stories, words of comfort, and not to mention the amazing, precious blankets I have received. Yet, still, I could not bring myself to go.

My husband offered to do it for me. My friends offered to take them for me. Even though I was thankful, I said no. I had to do this myself. Some months before I promised a very special little boy I would do this. I would be brave. I would keep my promise.

It wasn't until I started hearing back from all of you who have chosen to do this for your own hospital, that I decided to go. What an inspiration and help all of you have been. I love hearing about your experiences. Please continue to share them with me and my family. May all of you have a wonderful Christmas season. May God bless you and your family, just as you have blessed mine.

Love, Meryn


6 comments:

vibs said...

you are simply inspiring!
much love!
vibs

Megan said...

Hey I have been following you for just a week or so now, but wanted to say I'm proud of you. I'm not a mom yet and cannot even imagine how hard it must have been to go back to that hospital.

Megan

Kamerin Tangaro said...

I love you!

Sheryl Parsons said...

The word is getting out Meryntha. More and more sisters are asking to help.
You are living what I so feared when I had my babies. Bless you for finding a way to turn this into a positive as well as inspiring others.
Hugs and Love,
Sheryl

welcometomyfrontporch said...

I just ran across your blog. What a great thing you are doing. I lost my first born son, William at 37 1/2 weeks along. He had a cord accident. It is such a tragedy to lost a child and I'm so happy that you feel led to give blankets to those who are hurting. God bless!

Tonya said...

Five blankets coming your way!!! Thanks for allowing us the opportunity to pay tribute to your son as well as so many more!!! I have suffered many miscarriages and an ectopic pregnancy, but never a death at birth or farther along in the pregnancy. I can only imagine how that could be, but I am glad you started this as a tribute to your son...You go girl! By organizing this, you are touching so many people everywhere!!! What an inspiration!

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